Hi all. I'm still here. Like it says above, I'm still kicking.
We are recovering, whatever that means. We go to sleep at night, wake up in the morning, eat, take care of ourselves, Tiri, and the cats, and keep on keeping on.
The love and well wishes of certain friends have meant so much through it all, and today we received a beautiful gift. A necklace for me, with a blue bead and two hand engraved circles; the smaller has tiny footprints and "Freddy" on it, and the larger has "Always in my heart," and a keychain for Jerek. His has two circles too, the smaller one the same as mine and the larger with Freddy's birth date on it. I cried when I opened the box and read the note. The note was signed "The December Ladies." The December Due Date group ladies pooled resources and ordered the things from a seller on Etsy.
I'm still pumping milk to donate. Not as much as I would like, but that's partly my own fault. I should be pumping more. I get distracted though, or we aren't home, or something. Still, some is better than none and the beautiful little girl who is getting it is happy with every bottle of it that she has. I held her, and I fell in love.
Speaking of holding babies, I have baby rabies so bad. We hope to conceive as soon as possible. At times the desire for a baby is so strong I feel like I am suffocating under it.
I'm still knitting and crocheting, of course. Here are a few of the things I've done lately:
I made Tiri another hat.
I learned Feather and Fan lace (also known as Old Shale Stitch).
I made a preemie blanket.
And another Pebble vest.
I made a donation to WIC again, when I went to the appointment that was *supposed* to be their meet and greet with Freddy.
Tiri got a Cabbage Patch doll and I made it a sweater. This was actually mostly knit the same night she got it. I got a bad case of one-more-row-itis and finished all the knitting that night. I sewed it up the next day.
I also have this donation all packed and ready to be carried over to the post office. It is for Precious Preemie Project, with the help of Giving Artfully.
I've been keeping busy. I have to.
We are recovering, whatever that means. We go to sleep at night, wake up in the morning, eat, take care of ourselves, Tiri, and the cats, and keep on keeping on.
The love and well wishes of certain friends have meant so much through it all, and today we received a beautiful gift. A necklace for me, with a blue bead and two hand engraved circles; the smaller has tiny footprints and "Freddy" on it, and the larger has "Always in my heart," and a keychain for Jerek. His has two circles too, the smaller one the same as mine and the larger with Freddy's birth date on it. I cried when I opened the box and read the note. The note was signed "The December Ladies." The December Due Date group ladies pooled resources and ordered the things from a seller on Etsy.
I'm still pumping milk to donate. Not as much as I would like, but that's partly my own fault. I should be pumping more. I get distracted though, or we aren't home, or something. Still, some is better than none and the beautiful little girl who is getting it is happy with every bottle of it that she has. I held her, and I fell in love.
Speaking of holding babies, I have baby rabies so bad. We hope to conceive as soon as possible. At times the desire for a baby is so strong I feel like I am suffocating under it.
I'm still knitting and crocheting, of course. Here are a few of the things I've done lately:
I made Tiri another hat.
I learned Feather and Fan lace (also known as Old Shale Stitch).
I made a preemie blanket.
And another Pebble vest.
I made a donation to WIC again, when I went to the appointment that was *supposed* to be their meet and greet with Freddy.
Tiri got a Cabbage Patch doll and I made it a sweater. This was actually mostly knit the same night she got it. I got a bad case of one-more-row-itis and finished all the knitting that night. I sewed it up the next day.
I also have this donation all packed and ready to be carried over to the post office. It is for Precious Preemie Project, with the help of Giving Artfully.
I've been keeping busy. I have to.
Rachel, I am so, so sorry for you loss. I know it is crushing.
ReplyDeleteYour projects are all lovely. And so generous.
And the photo of your daughter and her doll is adorable.
Marie (kokoriffic on Ravelry)